Unapologetically Hopeful

I crawled into my shell and collapsed there for a while. I’ve been coming back out of it lately and socializing, and it feels good. It helps that I’ve been feeling better lately. Nothing has changed in my medicinal regimen, diet, or circumstance, so I’m giddy with the hope that this is trend.

I was told by my heart failure specialist that there is a chance that my diagnosis (LVNC) is inaccurate and that my heart condition is not degenerative. I could of danced out of that office and floated to my car hearing those words. It doesn’t even matter if it’s true or not. The mere possibility has me tripping over myself with hope. And I desperately needed to hear words of hope. Nobody wants a heart that is on a steady decline. Nobody wants a transplant! So I will enjoy my upswing and relish my taste of hope.

I’m going to a friends house who hosts a yearly Waffle Day to spend time with and meet friends. We then go to the movies with a different set of friends. And another friend and I embark on our hardcore tradition of Black Friday shopping. We don’t play! We shop for hours and have a blast, even if it’s just window shopping. Now I have no idea if I can do all of this. Maybe I can’t. I will be piecemealing my way through the day. Regardless, having plans and some energy for once is rewarding in and of itself.